惨！

花了整个下午写了一篇长长的文章准备post上来，但还是过不了自己那一关。文笔实在是太惨不忍睹了，所以只好胎死腹中，未能见天日。英文糟，华语也不行，真的无言咯。
算了，就说说自己开学都在忙些什么。本小姐最近超级堕落，白天睡觉，晚上玩牌，功课丢一边。惨！惨！惨！

Reunion dinner at Robin's house

Cinema

I tell you....this is scary.....i went to cinema with Mei Lian and there was no one inside......
Can you see anything unusual in the photo? hehehehe.......

鸡尾酒惹的祸

除夕夜，堂哥特意调了些鸡尾酒让家人品尝。
鸡尾酒掺了32%的酒精，但喝起来却像香槟，格外顺喉。
由于口感真的很好，结果不知好歹的我喝了三大杯。
爸爸喝一杯就觉得不对劲了，伯母喝两杯就开始做呕了。
我细尝了三杯，头有些昏眩，知道自己有点醉了。
但由于脑筋还算清醒的，所以觉得自己还蛮不赖，还蛮能喝。
凌晨4时许，我的恶梦就开始了。
颈项突然其痒无比，害得我都不能睡。
结果今天大年初一，我一整天从颈部搔痒搔到手臂，然后再到脚。
不但全身发痒，而且还出现红肿。
爸爸说我对酒精敏感，所以发酒漠。
话说回来，我喝红酒又没事。
别误会，我不是要当醉汉，只是觉得以后出来社会可能需要应酬，所以就在家人和我在一起时练练酒量，至少以后不会轻易就被人灌醉。
但看来今天我是有得受了，真是自找苦吃啊！

我不快乐

原本很期待回家过年的，但回到家，我只觉得烦......
家里发生了一些事，让我很不快乐。
每一年的农历新年，总是会为自己安排满满的行程。
今年却例外，没有团拜、没有聚会...没有心情...
退一步海阔天空，为什么有些人就是不明白呢？
人生短短数十年，我们有没有明天都是个未知数。
为什么就是要固执己见，让自己难受，让身边人也不好过呢？

往往，遗憾就是这样诞生的...

友情

曾经有朋友问我：“你不觉得她抢了你的位置吗？”

当时的我真不知该作何反应，所以只能报以微笑。

说真的，现在看见他们一群人开心的合照，我心里还是有些吃味，毕竟曾几何时我也是他们的其中一员。

但我没有资格怨天尤人，他们会离开是因为我不懂得珍惜，我也知道这会是我心中永远的痛。

我是一个不及格兼差劲的朋友，很多时候我只懂得receive和demand，却不懂得如何付出。我常在乎一些鸡毛蒜皮的事，却从来没真正去理解身边人的感受。

直到v跟我闹翻，她质问我是如何看待友情，她问我为什么要让所有的朋友都离我而去，为什么让她们失望。但我还是执迷不悟，我始终觉得自己没有错，只觉得自己很委屈。

之后，s也找上我了，他告诉我他是何等的重视我、关心我，在所有人都离开我时，他尝试带我走出梦魇，但我的目光从来没停留在他身上。他对我彻底失望，也清楚地表明他累了，不会再守护我了。我开始醒悟，但却不知所措。

跟他们俩的对话我一直储存到现在，用以警惕自己。但每看一次，心都像被人重重地击了一拳。

一直到开始了第一段感情，对方还是埋怨我不懂得付出，当失去时，我才猛然惊醒，但一切都太迟了。

闹翻两年后，我曾经跟n提及自己对这段友情的不舍和痛心，但她说就算能重来，她也会做同样的选择。

多么残忍的一句话，但却是我咎由自取。我一向以来都不善表达自己，越在乎就表现得越潇洒。我不但不承认自己在乎，我甚至说谎强调自己的不屑。我错过了自己在乎的人。亲耳听着他们的点点滴滴，就算心在淌血，我也逼自己表现得泰然自若。

武装，是为了自卫，却也造成遗憾。

唯一值得庆幸的是，上天没有因此对我弃之不理，他再次赐予我两个推心置腹的知己。
但很多时候，我还是会忽略她们，遇到问题时才向她们紧急求救，但她们从不嫌弃我，永远是我最忠实的听众。

娴、婷，我一直很感激上天让我认识你们，遇见你们让我放下过去，你俩更成了我的精神支柱。
肉麻地说一句，爱死你们了。
老套地说一句，友情万岁！

恶魔vs天使

其实也不知道要写些什么，但既然佳敏看不过眼，要我更新网志，那我就意思意思一下，简单记录自己最近的生活好了。这几个星期我和组员都在忙短片的制作。话说，英文教授给了我们一个assignment——要我们分组拍短片。构思、编剧、演绎、导戏、拍摄、后制我们都要一手包。过程是蛮累人的，但也确实是个不错的经验。承蒙组员的抬举，我在短片中也占上一角。说实话，我真担心自己会搞砸。第一，这类短片我没接触过，顶多只演过两次话剧（应该说是闹剧），一次是演恶妈妈，另一次是演女巫。不是我在臭美，当时的组长是要我演公主的，但我选择演女巫。原因无它，我是恶魔最佳的化身。所以比起公主一角，女巫我更能胜任。第二，天真单纯真的不是我的型。这一类的角色跟我本人简直是‘一个天，一个地’。虽然拍摄工作已经完成了20%，但每一个镜头不是对方欠我一百万，就是成了我的杀父仇人。我只有一个表情——凶神恶煞。我想，我的组长一定在心里诅咒我上N遍了，就连我自己都很想去撞墙。只能说，恶魔想变天使，你还是省着点吧！

New Hair Cut

Finally, I had cut my long long hair! hahaha......

In fact, I wanted to cut it long long ago but my mum didn't allow me to do that. As a result, I terpaksa suffered for a few months more. However in the end, I really couldn't stand my messy hair any longer. After a lot of persuasions, she eventually gave in. ^^ So, here I am, with my new hair cut. *proud*


Actually I wanted it to be shorter, but my mum was observing the whole cutting process beside me. *sigh*


When I told the barber,"Shorter please",


then my mum would say,"No. No. No. This is short enough. You won't want it to be shorter. It's ugly." *speechless*

Anyway, I am still satisfied with it, my shortest hair look ever since I was in secondary school. *though it's not really that short* ^^

A new hair cut might not mean anything to you but it means a lot to me. Somehow, I kept my hair long for some reasons. Now, there is no more reason for me to keep it. It's time for me to say good bye to the past and start my brand new life.

剪不断，理还乱是痛苦

一刀两断是解脱

梦

以前曾经有个人问过我：“你喜欢做梦吗？”

我回答说：“不喜欢。”

他又再问：“为什么呢？”

我说：“因为梦境都不确实际。”

最近不知道为什么，我却希望能在梦里逗留久一些，舍不得跟周公说再见。

美好的梦总是让人流连忘返。

这几天梦醒后，我都会努力地拼凑着脑海里零零碎碎的画面，拼命想搞清楚是真还是梦。

回想着梦里的一切，很希望至少有那么一幕是真实的，希望自己的人生也像梦里那么精彩。

在自我催眠的瞬间，空虚感就会像一股寒流般冷不防地灌进我心里。

丽琦，是时候该醒了……

我曾经做过一个梦。

梦里，一位挚友正缓缓地进入候机室。他要离开了，离开这个见证了我们许多回忆的土地，飞到远方一个没有我的国度。

梦里，我失控了。眼泪不争气地一直往下流。我拼命地抓着他，不让他离我而去。我歇斯底里地乞求他，至少为了我留下来。但，他最终还是选择离开。

梦醒后，我发现自己在棉被里不断地抽蓄，吓得一身是汗。对，我是被吓醒的。那个梦实在是太真了,真实得可怕。

当自己情绪平服一些后，我发了一封简讯给梦中人。

我问他：“你刚才是否也做了一个梦？”

很奇怪吧，我为什么劈头就问那么让人摸不着头脑的问题。

我想，我是想知道，他是否也在梦里和我相遇了吧……

Meng Min's 19th birthday

Our whole programme started once Meng Min entered the bathroom at about 5.3opm. We immediately tiptoed from the room and phew....we walked to the restaurant, leaving behind Yen Shiang as her companion, to be more exact, as our spy. We placed a letter on Meng Min desk telling her what to do.
First, she had to go to Room 1 to find Yen Shiang, who would pretend to know nothing. Then, with the 1st clue in the letter, she had to find the 2nd clue which was hidden in the balcony. After that, find the 3rd clue which was with one of our classmates in the other student house. From there, the game went on. There were 9 clues altogether by which the last one would bring her to us. Each clue was attached with a small packet of puzzles and also our birthday wishes. So, the whole idea was like a treasure hunt. She was given 45 mins to finish anything but she failed to do so. In the end, we waited for her for more than 2 hours.

See the sky. From the setting of the sun till the rising of the moon, we waited and waited.
The food had been served but still we had to wait.
Hungry and cold, we were.

Finally, the birthday girl was there at 8 something. Gosh, she took such a long time. The so called "聪明又敏捷"的黄明敏 turned out to be not that smart. *thumb down*

Time to play puzzle!

Again, she took ages to finish it.

Impatiently, we helped her to fix it.

Eventually, we reached home at 10 something.

At 12am, we went to her room with a cake.

Terrified to be 'sabo-ed', she was struggling on her bed.

The funny thing was we didn't have a lighter but Meng Min had one.

So, the 1st thing we did was to ask her for lighter.

Hahahahaha.

We decided not to sabo her due to 'sympathy'.

But there she was, trying to put cream on me.

So, she got it on her hair in return.

活该 ^^

Happy sweet 19th, young lady.

The naughtiest ever cutie.....hahaha

Memory

After been emo for the whole week, I think I should better do something to stop it. So, here i am, posting some recently taken photos (these photos had been posted by my friends in facebook) and think of something memorable.

Though this photo was taken by Jia Min on purpose in order to make fun of me, I like it but not the guy beside me to be clear.

Great memory with W48 but that's the end. I will miss them.

Talking about this photo, it reminds me on how foolish I am. My housemates asked me to cut the grass using scissors and there I was, innocently listening to them and started to do my job not knowing they actually have a lawnmower.

Spent our day in Time Square's themepark

Trip to Sunway Lagoon. A wonderful memory with all of them. Muaks ^^

New year count down

Residents of 194, BU 6/2.
Farewell to one of our housemates.
Winjing's 19th birthday

I am a bitch. So what?!

昨天淑欣跟我说了这么一句活“如果一个女生骂另一个女生是bitch,那你有理由质疑这句话的可信度：相反的，如果一个男生骂一个女生是bitch，那个女生就应该是bitch了。”正好，我就曾经被一个男生说我是bitch。可能你们会想，我一定是做了很过分的事，才会被他这样羞辱。但我对天发誓，我没有，因为当时的我根本不可能会做出令他讨厌的事。现在的我，只想说：“I'm a bitch. So what?!” 以前，我很在意别人对我的批评，我不会去讨厌那个人，但我会很伤心，开始变得很自卑，很自责。现在，我比较能放得开了，善意的批评我会听取，恶意的我还是会伤心，但就会尽量不放在心上。然而，这几天，我在面子书上的留言都超火爆，而且咄咄逼人。我承认我这个人是EQ低，但很大原因也是因为一个人。最近频频看见他上线留言，原本的好心情都一扫而空，满脑子充满恨意。我恨他，但更恨自己被他影响。我不明白为什么这个人的存在仍然有牵动我心情的力量。我讨厌这种感觉，但就像淑欣说的，这可能也是我必须经历的一个阶段。我只希望能早点摆脱这个梦魇，回到正常的轨道上。

我会好好的...

开学了...新的一年,大家都说要有一个全新的开始...但,我似乎一直在往后退...最近发生了一些事情,有心烦的,有沮丧的,有茫然的,但我却无从道出,说不出个所以然...这更让我懊恼了,有快窒息的感觉...
谢谢无时无刻关心我的朋友,谢谢你们想要帮我分担的心意,但有些事还是需要我自己去面对的...我想....我会好好的...

疯了!

了解我的朋友都知道,我最最最不能忍受的就是别人碰我的任何美术作品,尤其是未完成的,只要有半点损伤,我真的很有可能要那个人的命,不管是任何人...这是我最不能妥协的...可是只要我的作品有我不满意而且不能修补的地方,让我觉得很毛燥,我就会不管用撕用砸用剪地把它弄个粉粹....我就是那么极端.....只有我自己能碰.....
你知道我刚刚打开房门时看见什么吗?我弟和我妹手上各拿着一卷麻將纸你打来我打去的,我问我妹哪来的,她说橱柜上...我打开一看,其中一卷竟是我未完成的一幅画,被他们弄得皱不成型.我咬牙切齿,当下真的很想把他们给活活掐死.我真的被气疯了.还好妈妈被我的叫声吵醒,否则我弟和我妹一定全身淤青.这是我最最最不能忍受的事情,只要遇到这种事,我就会失去理智,十全十像个疯子.我现在简直就是脑充血,气炸了! 啊!!!!!!!!!!!!! 乌龟王八蛋,臭鸡蛋,死笨蛋,蠢鸭蛋!!!!!!!!! 就算是咸蛋超人我也不会给面子!!!!!! 啊!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

Damn!

Damn! I hate the feeling of being left out! Why am I always the one being left out? Why does this happen to me? I HATE it!!!! What is my fault this time? My attitude problem? My arrogance? Damn it.
This whole week is just like a hell to me! Everything seems to go against me! You bloody idiot! Arrghhhhhh!!!!!!!!