考试前忧郁+恐惧症

我一向来情绪管理特差。

除了脾气暴躁、易怒外，还特别容易紧张。

每逢重要考试，我都是游走在崩溃边缘。

SPM考试前几天，我是哭着过的，那时不敢让紫娴和依婷知道，躲在房间拨电给家维。

真的很感谢他，明明他也要应考，却还要忙着安慰我。

从中二起的每一次考试，都因为有家维坐在我身边，给了我很大的力量。

有这样一个朋友，是我前辈子修来的福。

现在的我，是一个人了。

想到要面对星期一的考试，我心里特别慌。

明明读了很多，却觉得脑袋空白，什么都不会。

心情真的很糟。

怎么办？

Schedule

最近时间不多，脑子里装了很多东西，但没心情写。

所以我就上载我最近的schedule好了。

ATA exam 要到了，以下是时间表。

11月1日 Physics

11月4日 EALD （English）

11月5日 Economics

11月8日 Mathematics

11月10日Chemistry

10天后，我又会是一条好汉。^^

考完试要干嘛？当然是大玩特玩咯。

11月19日 早上 convocation
                  晚上 senior night

11月22日-26日 btn camp

11月29日-12月5日 沙硓越之游

目前为此就这些。

拜拜咯。

恐惧

星期一领取考卷后，心情低落至极点。

成绩非常不理想。

物理是我最努力的一科，却也是我考得最糟的一科。

我心里一直在想：为什么？为什么会这样？我明明很努力了。为什么还是那么差？

当天下午上完课后，我就抱着书到图书馆做复习，晚上回来也接着念，不敢松懈。

渐渐的，低落的心情消失了........是麻木了吗？

不.......更确切地说，是被心里的恐惧给掩盖了。

对，我很害怕，我真的很怕。

想到自己没得飞，

想到要面对父母的失望，

想到要面对众人异样的目光，

想到自己前途茫茫。。。。。。

我慌了。

这几天的复习进度慢，我更慌。

只剩短短的两个星期了。

我告诉自己，我是比以前努力了，但那不够，不够为自己换取理想的分数。

我需要付出的是最大的努力，尽全力做最后一搏。

惟有这样，就算失败，我才会无憾。

外公七十大寿

被老妈逼回马六甲，就是为了庆祝外公的七十大寿。一家人简单地吃一餐。

越长越大，发现不止和长辈有代沟。

和年龄相若的表兄弟姐妹也没什么话题了。

反正不是个特别愉快的聚餐。

不过还是希望外公天天快乐，身体健康。



如愿以偿

回来了这么多天,今天终于感觉到自己在呼吸.

早上六点半,被老爸叫醒陪他和妈去吃点心,再陪他们去巴刹.

哦...拜托...我可是凌晨四点才入眠的,我老爸真会折腾人.

中午,到明汗小贩中心和我几位大牌的朋友吃中饭,让我足足等了四十分钟.

之后呢,托冠松的福,如我所愿到Nadeje high tea.

边聊天边看杂志,悠闲的午后时光让我直想高呼万岁.

嘻嘻...之后再委屈冠松要他陪我看 < Eat Pray Love >. 这部戏蛮对我的味,怕只怕冠松打磕睡.XD

回到家,两只熊猫眼都快睁不开了,不过最重要的是...心情好好. ^^

Another boring holiday......

Hate long holidays, especially with no friends around and exam pressure.

Staying at home all day long really makes people a zombie.

Damn.....I should have either followed Meng Min to Penang or Yen Shiang to Kuantan.

My holiday's gone. Time's wasted and I'm becoming emotionally unstable, again.

As expected, I'm spending all my time on dramas. 

My new favourite, a TV series entitled Nikita, starred by Maggie Q.

Simply couldn't concentrate on books. Sometimes, I would rather watch anime tv series like Conan than forcing myself to study.

Wanted to watch < Eat Pray Love> in the cinema and have a Mille Crepe at Nadeje.

But too bad no one is willing to be my companion. Everyone is busy.

And since I have not been driving for ages, it's quite impossible for me to go alone.

Damn it.......I'm now a caged bird.

Love = Happy

I always wish to have a shopping spree with my best friends like what we did today. Though I ended up with empty hands, we still had a very great moment together. 

Our outing ended with laughter because of me.....haha...can't stop laughing even until now......^^

The story is like this: 

After the short gathering, together we took LRT to our respective destinations. From Hang Tuah, Yi Ting and Edward headed to Bandar Tasik Selatan while Chee Shean accompanied me to Bukit Jalil. We had a good time chit-chatting in the LRT and we were so engrossed in our conversation. Then suddenly I looked up and saw the sign board of Salak Selatan. Without a second thought I asked Yi Ting and Edward to leave the LRT. The funny thing is....both of them simply listened to me, though they were shocked. Just when the door was closing, Chee Shean asked me, "So, next station is Bukit Jalil, is it?" Till then only I realized I had made the stupidest mistake. But, what could I do? The LRT was already leaving in its greatest speed....^^

Bandar Tasik Selatan = Salak Selatan

I can be this stupid.....=.=" I also don't know why....Can somebody tell me why? Why why why?

Miss you & love you....muakz ^^

Charlie St.Cloud and Kim Gary at Sunway Pyramid

Watched Charlie St.Cloud at Sunway Pyramid's TGV with friends and cell group members after my oral exam yesterday.

Quite a nice movie. Worth-watching. I love Zac's pair of blue eyes. =)

But there's one thing very strange. I went to Sunway Pyramid for 5 times but ended up having meal at Kim Gary thrice. Of course I wasn't the decision maker. Just wondering why they like Kim Gary so much. >.<

Oh ya.....I have finally received the conditional letter from University of Melbourne. Hooray!!!!

They made a mistake on my e-mail address which caused the mail not reaching me.

My address is alissa_llc@hotmail.com but the person-in charged ended up sending the mail to alissa_lk@hotmail. >.<

Anyway, thank to IDP for I have received the letter now. ^^