KL游

累!在kl逛了三天....真的超累!不过呢,还好是带着战利品凯旋归来,不像上次,逛了两天什么都没买到.糟的是,我一直吃...本以为可以藉着打羽球甩去身上些许赘肉,但假期开始以来,我只打了三次.吃呢...我可是差不多二十四小时都在进行着...现在,我是名副其实肉包脸,水桶腰,大象腿,骐麟臂,反正就是肉球一个...看见镜子都想晕...连买裤子都要大一size....真想去撞墙!!!

Merry Christmas!!!! love U ^^

哇!4.24am了噢!不知道是不是因为今天是圣诞节,所以我并不想把时间浪费在周公身上,所以就在这里瞎掰咯.嘻嘻 ^^
我想今年是因为没办告解的关系吧,所以我无法以轻松愉悦的心情去庆祝耶稣的诞生,感觉好像自己的心还装着满满的罪恶,没被掏空,好沉重噢!而且,今年也是我第一次没跟家人过圣诞,而是跟朋友去了基督教会的派对,这更加深了我的罪恶感. @_@不是说朋友不好,只是我认为圣诞节应该是家庭日,所有的家人都应该聚在一起.其实,我想和家人过圣诞,又想和jenny他们一起过,还有紫娴和依婷,我是不是很贪心啊?不过不得不说,有朋友真棒! (photo: curi from Jo Ann) ^^

冬至快乐

今天子富邀我们去他家吃汤圆...结果呢...原来是要我们自己做...而且那些家伙还给我迟到....叫他们撮汤圆,竟然撮到什么形状都有...晕... =.="
不过跟一班朋友打打闹闹过节,感觉还是很不错. ^^

讨人厌的东西

有时候我真的很不明白,为什么有一些人就那么地不识趣.
难道你不知道有一些问题是禁忌吗?
更何况你根本没有资格问.
自以为是的家伙,你以为所有的人都要绕着你团团转吗?
我告诉你,我可不想跟你没完没了.
拜托你醒目一点,你没发现我已经很不耐烦了吗?
我傻,但我不蠢.
我有我的原则...
请你以后三思而行
不要影响我的情绪
反正我一直是个恶魔,
多一个人讨厌我也没差....

IELTS result

After so many times of calling, finally i got my IELTS results....
It's under expectation.
I know my english level is always poor but I thought I have improved all this while.
This result truly upset me.
My only wish now is this dissapointing result will be accepted by JPA.
I don't want to retake the test next year.
Hopefully, this nightmare will be over as soon as possible.....

Avatar

Avatar is a great movie!!! worth-watching! Just watched it with my gang....hehe
At first, i didn't want to watch it. I thought it was a scary movie. But then yks, robin , wee sern and zhe fuh kept persuading me to watch it. Luckily, it's nice. If not, hehehe.... i will kill they all...hahaha...Last Thursday, i also spent a day with Cui Fang in dp and mp. She asked me to watch Princess and The Frog. The movie is so childish. I almost fell asleep in the cinema.

After the movie, the 4 big guys were forced to "追星" with me...hehe...I was busy taking photo....so they terpaksa waited for me loh....^^

Then, when we wanted to go back....zhe fuh's car tersangkut in the middle of Pahlawan Walk.

And they claimed that it's all MY FAULT !!! haiz......

同学聚会

今天的聚会真的蛮糟,都怪自己没安排妥当,很抱歉...

而且我个人觉得Sibaraku不是一个很好的选择,

我都没吃到什么,食物都不是很合胃口.

说真的,一开始因为一些人不合作,让我超火大的....
但能与好朋友叙旧,还是让我很开心....
尤其当紫娴和依婷要离开的时候,真的很不舍....
还有好多好多话要跟她们说,真的很想她们....

不知道为什么...每次同学聚会,我的心情都怪怪的,超不自在....
希望一切都是我想太多了...
还是要感激Marlene,家维和yong scen.
很谢谢他们给予的帮忙.
希望下一次的聚会能办得更好,更多人出席....

叔叔的大喜之日

几杯黄油下肚，现在头有些昏眩，键盘上的英文字母让我看得很是吃力，但还是想撑着点把此时此刻的心情记录下来。
我刚从小叔的婚宴回来。结婚本该是喜事，对吧？但它却成了家人们为这一个月来疲惫的身心发泄及释放的管道。
小叔结婚一直是众所期待的，尤其是婆婆。。。天天都在嘴里叨念。。。就是为么子迟迟未成家而挂心。。。小叔原本也很吊儿郎当，但最终也因婆婆的病情而屈服了。。。
（至今，对于真正的病情，婆婆还被蒙在鼓里，没人忍心让她知道真相。）
小叔可说是为结婚而结婚，也是为了让婆婆安心，一了她的心愿。
婚礼一切从简，没在酒楼设宴，只在家里宴请一些近亲。
不知是否因为喜气的熏染，今天婆婆勉强能在他人的搀扶下移动，比起之前只能卧病在床，看在家人眼里真是欣慰。大家心里也明白，婆婆为自己的行动不便很是介怀。
今晚，叔叔伯伯们又是红酒又是烈酒一杯杯地灌下肚，不消多时，一个个就开始醉态毕露。有的胡言乱语，又喊又叫；有的要扶人，结果自己先‘啪’的一身倒在地上；有的坐在椅子上不省人事，任人鱼肉；有的发酒疯，要找人打架。临近尾声，一个又一个的开始呕吐。大伙儿忙得手忙脚乱，那边还没吐完，这里又需要桶了。这都不算什么，真正让人触心的是五叔。他一醉，就把压抑多时的心里话都说出来了。他又哭又喊，尽是自责，说自己不孝，没好好照顾婆婆。小叔也悲从中来，哭倒在地。爸爸还算理智，他叫叔叔要坚强，否则所有的人都会崩溃。当时的我，也拼命地在忍着泪水。
记得一个月前，当我回来第一眼见到婆婆时，我就哭成泪人了。婆婆要我别哭，她说爸爸在医院也流了不少眼泪。我相信没几个人曾经看过自己的父亲掉眼泪吧？我也没有。婆婆看见我泪流不止，转头向旁人说：“我这个孙很疼我的”，又说不知道有没有机会去澳洲看我，听得我心都碎了。
这次回来，爸爸也一直催促我到婆婆家，婆婆一看到我就直说很想我，一旁的五婶听了都吃起了无名醋，我可是甜在心里呢！但，婆婆不像以前那么多话有趣了，有时坐在她身边都不知道该说些什么好。
我的婆婆一直是个很可爱的长辈，大家都很喜欢她。婆婆时常叮嘱我选配偶要眼睛睁大大，不要误了自己的幸福。我还答应她交男友时一定会先让她过目，她说可以就可以，她说不行就不行，一切以她的意见为前提。我真希望婆婆能一直看着我成长，直到我毕业，甚至是结婚生子。
主啊，你一定要保佑我婆婆，减轻她的疼痛，并治愈她的一切病痛。

一个月增了2公斤 六个月增了5公斤
兄弟们一见到我就说 "你肥了"
再不节制 恐怕就快搞出人命了
真想哭啊 @_@

一颗被糟蹋过的真心 还懂得如何付出吗?

我努力地维持在一个平衡点 不让自己动摇

因为再一跌 我恐怕没有能力再站起来了

这个假期是难熬的

因为当四周沉静下来 不受外界干扰时

就是脑细胞最不守规矩的时候

今年的学院生涯终于告一段落了.
原本很期待回家的...
但回到家,心情却很矛盾
感觉慵懒,没生气,做什么事都提不起劲.
我不想一个月的时间在无所事事中度过.
真的很闷.
怎么办才好呢?

I'm not a transsexual...I am a REAL WOMAN !!!

Tell you something about my moral forum yesterday which was entitled 'transsexualism'. It's kind of challenging as I played the role of a transwoman at which I shared my experience to the audiences.

When Sook Yan was introducing me, everyone started to laugh already. I was very nervous because the atmosphere should be very serious. I myself also couldn't help but kept laughing. But then, I tried to control myself and started my speech. Throughout the speech, I was blank. I kept forgetting my script and I paused for several times. OMG. I thought I had ruined the whole thing. I was truly upset at that moment.

However surprisingly, everyone gave me a big applause after I had finished my speech. I was shocked. Some of my friends came approaching me afterwards asking whether I was a real transsexual. When I said no, they asked me to prove it. Haha...they were so funny. Some said my acting had deceived them into believing the story.

You know why?

haha...here is the reason.

When I paused, my body started to shiver and I kept looking downwards. I wiped my eyes while sniffing. I was actually trying to remember my script but they thought I was suffering from recalling all the bad memories. All of them thought I was choking with sobs and was unable to speak.

What a misunderstanding? haha...

And now please take a look at my script....

Hi, everyone. I’m Alissa. I was called Aaron before I completed Gender Reassignment Surgery. I know what’s in your mind now but please don’t hold any prejudice against transsexuals. We are not freaks, nor do we suffer mental illness. We are simply trapped in the wrong bodies.

When I was young, sex had seemed unimportant to me. I lived a fairly gender free life up until I was sent to school. And you know, girls and boys had to wear different uniforms. All the other girls were dressed in blue A-line skirts, but I had to be like the boys in their long trousers. I hated it. I like hanging out with girls and I always acted like them but I used to get teased by those stupid guys for being a sissy. I had never looked at myself as a male in any way whatsoever. I was a girl born with a penis, that's all.

Then suddenly in my teenage years, I began to get beard growth which was really horrified me. I was worried what other hormonal changes were about to hit me. Since then, I was so moody and depressed. My parents sent me to a psychiatrist, but the so-called experts were useless. All I wanted to know was why I, as a woman, was getting a beard. It was just a physical problem as far as I was concerned, but they thought I was mental.

I always know what I want. I used to wear mini-skirts and dressed as a girl. I can’t be bothered to take others’ criticism.

Then, I met Mike. He was a wonderful man. He started to date me and both of us were eventually in love. However, all this time he had no idea about my gender background. I never told him about it and of course he never asked. He had no reason to suspect I was anything other than a normal girl. Everything seemed to go well until Mike asked for a more intimate relationship. I was filled with guilt at not being frank. I loved him very much but I couldn’t tell him the truth. I had to make the break with him.

The breakthrough of my life came when I came across Gender Reassignment Surgery. It took my parents long to accept the fact that their only son was about to turn into a transsexual but they were considerate. They knew the trauma I was going through. After the cosmetic surgery finalizing my transition from a male to a female, I was finally on my way. I moved to US and now I am a finance manager in a big firm. To date, I am still looking forward my true love and I hope to get married just like the other normal girl.

刚和朋友看了Twilight，Jacob在电影院外欲牵Bella手的那一幕，让我回想起自己的手第一次被牵的感觉。第一次，也是唯一的一次。是今年初吧。我记得自己还一直有意无意地挣脱他的手。我一直以为第一个牵起我的手的那个人会陪我走到永远，虽然一开始我就知道我们不会长久。
朋友都说他唯一的优点就是不会背叛，但他却成了第一个背叛我的人。
我说过我很怕受伤害，但他还是伤害了我。
恨他吗？我曾经很恨，恨他背弃承诺，恨他抛弃我。
但现在，我没感觉了，因为他对我来说已经什么也不是了。

身边一个又一个的朋友都开始谈恋爱了，真的有点羡慕。>< 爸爸上星期还问我，没出去约会啊？哈哈，有人约就好咯，惨就惨在没人约… 我不否认我向往爱情，渴望爱情，我也一直是个浪漫主义者，但我还知道什么叫矜持，知道什么叫自尊心...

承诺就像泡沫，稍一不留神就化为乌有。不要轻言对任何人许下承诺，因为一个不起眼的承诺可能是别人一辈子的遗憾。

可能神要我們在遇到那位對的人之前先遇上一些錯的人，讓我們遇到那位對先生/對小姐時懂得珍惜。

Today is not a good day....
My speaking test sucks.....
My Malaysian Studies's question-answering session sucks as well....
And I am not satistied with my Math mark....
I feel like a fool today!!!!
Can I crash my head into the wall?!

I am blessed ^^

I am lazy to update my blog actually but I can’t wait to write something down to record all my great memories.

First, the unforgettable one…

Last Friday at 8.30pm, Jia Min’s hp rang and she awoke me. It might seem something normal but I should actually wake up before 8am and get ready for the van to come by 8.15am. That means I was late. Meng Min and Sook Yan called me for a couple of time but I just couldn’t hear the ringtone and continue to sleep soundly. Therefore, they called Jia Min to wake me up. I was so shocked to see the time and only managed to brush my teeth and change a T-shirt. When I rushed down to the front yard, the second van had gone off as well. Gosh, I was so panicked. What could I do? Luckily, housekeepers came to our student house that morning and they offered to send me to campus. And you know what? I ended up wearing sleeping pants and slippers to class. So embarrassing man….

Gala Night yesterday was not really fun, maybe because I still don’t know most of the JPA students. But overall, it’s quite ok. Gala Night is actually held for our seniors’ graduation. Yesterday was their last day in KBU and they are going to fly over to Australia in the mid-February next year. I was not really close with those seniors but I start to miss them right now especially after what they had done to me today.

my class

all my housemates...nice leh.....
Jia Min, me and Meng Min

The Three Naughtiest

JJ (the tallest guy in my class) - this guy always "shoots" me.

I admit I was the one who started the war but couldn't he be a gentleman? ><

Even when we were taking this photo, he was still 'shooting' me. Haiz....

Kah Wai with the girls

Kah Wai also always 'shoots' me but he is truly a helpful guy.

My drawing for winter...not bad right? ^^

Kah Wai and Sook Yan with their drawing on spring

I called it 爱情结晶品...hahaha

They are really nice people. Senior Jinn Jyh sold all his books and notes to me for only RM40. Can you imagine? One of my friends bought from another senior for RM70 and it was considered quite cheap already. Before I went to his house this morning, I was wondering what sort of books he is going to sell me for only RM40. In fact, one new book can cost more than that. But he told me that’s a lot and asked whether I could take them back home by myself. When I saw all the books and notes, I was stunned. They are really a lot and they are so neatly kept. I kept thanking him and asked whether RM40 is enough. He said initially he is going to give all his things to the juniors but other seniors forced him to sell. So he just sold them at a low price. He is such a nice guy. And guess what…I never met him the day before today. Senior Ming Chai gave me his hp’s number. Still, he is so kind to me. ^^

Books and notes from Senior Jinn Jyn

Three hours after that, another senior sms me. It’s Senior Jun Kai. He is no doubt a great guy. He offered to ‘give’ me all his books and notes. And he carried everything all the way to my student house. By the time he reached, he was actually bathing in sweat. I was so grateful to him. Senior Jun Kai is actually my senior from GBS as well. I was wondering why I never met him before in secondary school. 真是‘相逢恨晚’^^

Books and notes from Senior Jun Kai

The great guy - Senior Jun Kai

Senior Xiao Fen later told me that Senior Jin Jyn is the top student from architecture class while Senior Jun Kai is also the top student from engineering class. Both of them got the first place in their respective classes. Oh my God…真是有眼不识泰山….Why there are such nice and smart guys in the world? Before this, I thought all the smart guys will have some sorts of peculiar behaviours… haha… ^^ By the way, I want to send them my good wishes and I will pray that they will continue to do well in their study and be great persons in the future.

Do you see the black guy beside me? Got it? Today, Pastor Kong asked us to smile with the person beside us if we didn’t bring our bible and most probably they will share their bibles with us. So the black guy spoke to me, “Smile with me and I will share my bible with you.” Hahahaha….he is so funny.

I am truly blessed lately as I met with so many great persons in my life. They are so kind and lovely.

I love you, God.