回到我想念的家

终于把搁在一旁多时的《哈利波特与死亡圣器》看完了，真不得不对罗琳这位大作家肃然起敬，内容简直太精彩了。看完了整个系列，最让我着迷的竟是原先让我恨得牙牙痒的西弗勒斯。斯内普这个角色。可惜，他所体现的痴情在现今社会几乎已经绝迹。时下的青年人谈恋爱都是玩票性质，为爱牺牲反而成为了愚蠢的表现。
经过昨天死里逃生般的旅程，我终于还是在晚上十时抵达了家里。昨天上完最后一堂科后，和David风尘仆仆地搭了的士到地铁站。由于正值下班时间，地铁里的拥挤程度是罐头沙丁鱼难以媲美的。再加上当时我还没买票，心里尽是慌。好不容易到了武吉加里尔，上天竟然没有怜悯我，甚至还索性来场滂沱大雨。人行道的雨盖没发挥多少效用，无情的风教唆着雨滴毫不留情地打在我们身上。抱着沉重行李的我虽然人生地不熟，也只能奋力地往前冲了。到了临时搭建的巴士站，我只管箭步到柜台买票。万幸，返甲州的车票多的是，害我白担心了一场。
在等待巴士启程期间，我像充满好奇心的小孩般四处张望，观察四周的情景。所谓的巴士站是由临时帐篷形成的，所以很简陋，而且四处都是水坑。大雨浇息了游子们热切归家的心情，大家都带着无奈又沉重的神情望向远方。我全身湿漉漉的，长发清汤挂面般贴在脸颊上，十分狼狈。阵阵刺骨的冷风加剧我的寒冷，使我直打哆嗦。接着，肚子很不识相地直打鼓，提醒着我是时候医肚了。但我能上哪找食物呢？巴士站像极了难民营，也许我也该像难民那样受寒挨饿。临上巴士前，David递给了我一小包的饼，那对当时的我而言，简直是天降神粮。真是谢主龙恩，我才不至于因饥饿难耐而驾返瑶池。哈哈…
上天，请于即将来临的星期天赐予我好天气吧，如果你很难过，也请暂时忍一忍吧，不要又哭鼻子了，否则如果班级聚会办不成，我也会跟你一起嚎啕大哭的。 =)

Exam...Exam...Exam...

Saturday, after my terrible english exam, I went to One U to meet Ross, Zi Han and Zhe Fuh. So glad to see them. I haven't met Ross since the day I received my JPA letter. We were playing badminton together with Ben and Cui Fang during that day. Really miss that moment a lot. >< -
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Today, I went to City Harvest Church again and got to know a couple there. The girl was born in Malacca but then she grew up in KL, so we started talking about Malacca.

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Antonia : My grandparents live in Klebang Besar. Do u know that area?

Me : Omg. My grandparents live around that area too.

Antonia : Do u know the Mobil Petrol Station there?

Me : Sure. My dad works as a mechanic at the workshop behind the petrol station.

Antonia : Really? My grandpa owns that petrol station. I think I know ur dad. What's ur dad's name d?

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What a coincidence? I heard my dad talking about the tauke of the petrol station a lot since i was young and they are quite close with each other. What a small world? I've been City Harvest Church for four times and I had met 2 Malaccans. Both of them are so friendly. Nice to know them.

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Oh ya...bf of Antonia suggested me to participate in the beauty pageant of the coming 'Emerge'. haha...u know...girls love when others praise them. ^^

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ok..that's all for today...have to study d...Maths exam tomorrow...The day after tomorrow, I will be as free as a bird....looking forward the raya break.....life is GREAT....haha =)

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又是一个不眠之夜

刚完成经济学和物理测试，整个人轻松了不少，今午回来后还睡了近四小时的午觉，好好地补眠。现在已过了午夜，却一点睡意都没有，坐在沙发上，又不想做任何事，真觉得自己像条虫，还是一条懒虫。^^

今天的英语会话测试不是很理想，但我已有心理准备，下次再努力吧！

星期一晚上为雁湘和淑欣庆祝生日，十一点把她们俩骗去草场，七个人合力用水淋湿她们，再用藏在口袋的面粉砸她们。哈哈。。。拜我们所赐，她们简直快变成雪人了。做了坏事的我们很快就跑回了宿舍，可惜佳敏和昀静来不及赶上，为了不被那两个寿星对付，我们只好狠心地把门锁上，拒她们于门外。可怜的佳敏和昀静为了躲过袭击还跑了几条街，真是苦了她们。我们却在屋内望着窗外捧腹大笑，可怜我们的同党为了'完成大我牺牲小我'。生日当然少不了蛋糕，唱完生日歌后，我很快就准备上楼洗澡闪人，但还是免不了被雁湘用巧克力蛋糕涂脸。可惜我错过了蛋糕大战，当我洗完澡再次下楼时，大家都在处理惨况，抹地的抹地，抹墙的抹墙，可想而知蛋糕大战的精彩程度。听了她们的战后报告，大家又是一阵大笑。最难得的是，我们第二天早上都有考试，但还是玩疯了。

开斋节假期快到了，原本以为终于可以回家一解思乡苦，但之后却决定和几个朋友北上来个七日游。如计划没变，下星期五会先去kajang明敏家，然后去kedah佳敏家，最后再去penang昀静家，一直玩到星期四再回马六甲。疯狂吧？我自己都觉得不可思议。嘻嘻。。。

最近在为我班筹备一个海边烧烤聚会，虽然我知道过程不容易，但总要有人踏出第一步。希望大家都能和我配合，让大家得以有个愉快的夜晚。

Play More Than Study

It has been 2 months since I started my life here but I found that it seems like I was playing more than studying. Somehow I feel anxiety and guilty for not putting my heart on study. After the crazy week I had been through, this week is rather calm but still exciting. I went to Lagoon View for a bbq party on Thursday night and also showed up in the 'Majlis Berbuka Puasa' held by the Icon Club the following day. On Saturday, I went shopping with my friends at One Utama for whole day long. Time and money were wasted. Argh.....so many tests yet to come before Raya break but I haven't started revising anything. I should have managed my time more wisely....

Jia Min

Lychee & Ciku ^^

Jia Jun

David

Kah Wai

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今年的生日过得很特别，重要的是...有些东西终于落幕了...

去年的生日掺杂着一些不堪回首的回忆，是噩梦的开始，是我想删去的记忆

侥幸的是...现在的我过得很好

谢谢朋友们真诚的祝福，你们让我带着满满的祝福展开新的里程碑

谢谢父母对我的溺爱，谢谢他们包容我的无理

谢谢弟弟送我的钱包，谢谢他在我手机里做的小改造

谢谢妹妹对我的想念，让我知道家里有人在等我回去

谢谢婆婆和伯母的红包

谢谢紫娴和依婷愿意来马六甲和我小聚，谢谢她们的礼物

谢谢兄弟们给我的惊喜，虽然他们在生日卡上都不约而同地表示想抛弃我这个包袱

谢谢建森愿意为我牺牲自己班上的烧烤会

谢谢子富为我回去马六甲

谢谢冠松的‘诈骗’

谢谢壮豪的bubble talk，真的让我很感动

谢谢Ross和Yibin从kampar拨电给我，还有俐蕴和汉扬

谢谢家维的MMS，虽然我没办法打开

谢谢我的cellgroup为我庆祝生日，谢谢他们的礼物

谢谢我室友的惊喜蛋糕

谢谢佳敏的开朗，和她在一起让人觉得快乐

谢谢朋友们的祝福简讯

谢谢朋友们在facebook的留言

谢谢所有我漏掉感谢的人

今年很多人为我唱生日歌，也吃了很多蛋糕，心里除了感激还是感激。

我真的很幸福...... ^^

Life is enjoyable with friends

wau...this is an absolutely 'crazy' week for me. So much to share and I dont know where to start... ^^

Ok...let me start from Monday ...

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24/8/09 (Monday)

You couldn't imagine the atmosphere when I prayed together with Jia Min, Heng Hee and David in the middle of the park at night. We were there for about 2 hours and we shared most of our feeling with each others. It's so heart-warming, so touching and I'm so glad to have them in my life.

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25/8/09 (Tuesday)
A miserable day...We kena saman on the 1st day we drove to our campus. RM100 was gone. Worst still when the car key stuck in the lock of car boot. Luckily there's a kind guy willing to solve our problem. Thanks. ^^ After that, we washed the car together, in fact, we play more than work, especially Meng Min and I. Haha....

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26/8/09 (Wednesday)

Steamboat meal!!! thanks everyone, especially all my cell group members and my coursemates as well.

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27/8/09 (Thursday)

Our second drive... but the car really torture us a lot. The bonnet smoked badly and water was flowing out from it. At last, Mei Lian decided to send back the car. Haiz... Our 'walking' life remains.

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28/8/09 (Friday)

Zhe Fuh's and my mum came to fetch us back to Malacca. Great to be home. I spent an enjoyable moment with my family having satay celup.

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29/8/09 (Saturday)

Busy...Busy...Busy

10.30am - cut hair, bought some local delicacies for my coursemates (dont want to get scolded by Meng Min again) ><

2.00pm - primary school friends' gathering at Uncle & Auntie Coffee Shop

3.00pm - gathered with Shean and Ting at Jusco

7.00pm - gathered with primary school friends again at Thong Shui House

9.00pm - gathered with gangz at Malim Old Town Coffee Shop

11.30pm - with gangz at Taman Asean basketball court
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30/8/09 (Sunday)

After church, I went shopping with mum and siblings at mp. I bought a bag for my brother as his birthday present. Then, I took a nap at home, had dinner with grandpa and grandma and then went Taman Asean again. I celebrated birthday with my gangz. But chance, I met Marlene, Si Mei and Soo Ling there. They were having bbq with their classmates.

Show you all some photos. Kin Sum!!! My hair is so 'creamy'.

PHYSICS test this coming Tuesday but I haven't touch any book. God bless me!!

EMO.....

My birthday is approaching & i start to receive few sms and phone calls recently, mainly to ask me about my birthday party. Every year during this period, i will have a big headache. Should I hold party, Who to invite and what should I do so that i wont trouble my mum? My intention is to gather everyone and have some fun together. You know....it really sounds silly to hold party celebrating my own birthday every year. I would rather call it as a gathering than a birthday party. But now it's like a tradition to hold party in my house every year. I am like.... holding it to make others happy. Why there isn't anyone to ask me 'am I happy'? My answer is: I am not happy at all. It's like holding party under pressure. Everyone is looking forward it & that's why i should hold one.
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Do you know how I wish to go back to my hometown and really enjoy myself during this short holiday? But now I have to worry about the stupid party. Can I just cancel off everything? >< -
And same to my gangz, why we can make surprise party for kin sum, celebrating with kwan song, but I have to prepare my own birthday all by myself? I don't mean to be rude or blame anyone here. Just that i feel very sad. I am glad to have many friends in my life but why am I always blamed for abandoning some of my friends, giving priority to others 0r even being untrustworthy?
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Friendships are important to me and I can't afford to lose any of my best friend. So please dont ever tease me by saying I pay more attention to other group of friends and dont care about u all. It's not a joke to me. It really hurts me a lot.
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Sorry for being discourteous. I am just a bit EMO......
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Weekly post

I went to my cell group leader's house at Lagoon View Resort Condo for sermon yesterday together with David, Jia Min and Heng Hee after our Moral lesson. As I still had some time there before the sermon started, i decided to pay a visit to Zhe Fuh's hostel (Sunway Residence) which is just walking distance from Lagoon View. I had not met him since I was here in early July. We had a great time chatting with each other although he kept pretending to chase me away as I only focused on his laptop rather than him most of the time><

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The sermon started at 8pm and took about one and a half hour. We played game for ice-breaking and had a sharing report in which we praised God for His greatness in blessing us throughout the week. Then, Jenny preached the sermon. It was my pleasure to spend my time with Jenny, Avera, Zi Yin, Nicol, Ernest and of course Jia Min, Heng Hee and David.

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However, since I arrived at my student house at 11pm, I didn't have much time to prepare for my speaking. Bad luck was still surrounding me today when Ms Wan asked me to talk about one of the five topics given which was the only topic I didn't prepare at all. Eventually, i managed to speak out though my task fulfillment was not complete.

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After that, we listened to a talk from Prof. Roger Fay who is the head of school of design and architecture in University of Tasmania. It was the third talk presented to us within these two weeks with University of Melbourne as the first and Deakin University as second. I could felt a heavy burden imposed on my shoulder which made me ponder long and deeply over my future. Am I on the right track? Sometimes I doubt whether architecture is my passion. I know I have no choice but to continue. However, to get a desirable TER score and fly to Australia are undeniably an arduous task especially for a weak candidate like me. I need to work extremely hard for it.

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K....here comes the interesting part of the day...chemistry experiment...most of the time we only did titration but still it was fun. With Kah Wai in our group, we managed to be the first to finish all three experiments. He told me, " 你不会就问kakak。我跟她很好的。" **swt** You can always hear his high-pitched voice in the lab screaming "Kakak! Kakak! Macam ni boleh tak" "Kakak! Kakak! Mana solution B?" The 'kakak' he mentioned is actually our lab assistant. **haiz...memang tak boleh tahan this guy** Despite that, he is a very helpful group members and is also fond of gossip just like me. ~~kesian our leng lui winjing~~oh ya....what I want to tell you all is...guys are really realistic species. This story begins with Winjing and I queuing to weigh sodium carbonate. Those malay guys in front all gave way to leng lui Winjing with smile and friendly manner and waiting patiently for her to weigh the chemical. I thought i will also get the same privilege as i am also a girl. Who knows... once Winjing left, all guys in front blocked me and continue their works as if I was transparent. **this is so called 样子问题 by Kah Wai** issh...

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A Random Weekend

I had wasted this weekend actually, doing nothing in my student house. I planned to read through all my notes but in the end i sleep more than read. Hopefully by next week or the subsequent week, I will be able to go back to my beloved hometown. There will be a writing quiz as well as a speaking session again tomorrow, but i think i haven't prepare enough yet. **Pray God** Last Friday, I had done a lot of silly things during speaking session which caused my classmates laughing at me for whole day long. Haiz...When will my life of becoming a clown end? Hopefully before the IELTS exam...

I went to City Harvest Church today and had really enjoyed myself. The atmosphere there was awesome. The whole service was just like a band concert. It was so warm and touching as you could see lots of Christians there with tear-filling eyes raising up their hands high to praise God with heart-warming songs. After that, we headed to a restaurant to celebrate the birthday of one of our cell group members. I had quite a nice chat with a senior there. He said, in order to perform well in your exam, you need to find a bf or gf here. The truth is all those couples are always the top scorers of their same batch. Isn't it funny? Maybe I should try it out? ^^

Our lovely Winjing attracts some admirers recently. At last, I have something to gossip about and some shows to watch. Hahaha....i am always evil, ain't I?

***The testing of our faith produces patience leading to maturity.***

~~If we learn, we grow. We move on.~~

不眠之夜

现在是上午5点20分
望着电脑
我失眠了

以为自己放下了
以为自己过得很好
以为只要一直笑我就会真的快乐

不晓得从何时开始 我变得很自卑
你说我失去自我了 我却连反驳的机会都没有
因为这是事实

现在的我很想放声大哭
但是眼泪好像已被我耗尽
也好 哭得双眼红肿去上课只会让我显得更可悲

一直以来我身后都竖立着温暖的大树
永远都会有人对我说
“琦，别再熬夜了，早点睡吧。。”
“琦，记得要吃早餐。。”
“琦，别再吃杯面了，不然我真的生气咯！”
“好了，别再想了，都交给我吧！”
“凡事有我在。”
总有人在我失落时拍拍我的肩
在我糊涂时推推我的头
我以为一切都很理所当然

当‘永远’只剩下回忆
我才毅然发现自己已经无可救药地变得依赖
恐惧 惊慌 只剩下一个人的生活

无奈 有些东西逝去就不会回来
现在的我 惟有硬着头皮向前走 努力不让自己跌倒
我不知道自己能走多远 但我不会放弃
我会找回自信 我会继续微笑
总有一天 我会重生
那时侯的我 不再一样

sleeping is great....haha....

Again I dozed off in class today...sorry Miss Effa, I didnt do that on purpose...I slept at 3am this morning >< sorry......
The malay guys in my class were quite surprised to find me sleeping in class
and the funniest thing is they tried to wake me up....haha....not knowing i am a sleeping queen....sleeping in class is my style k (though i have quite a number of embarassing moment due to it) =D
wah....i was so shocked to see all of them looking at me when i opened my eyes....
so embarassing...i think my cheek sure blushed at that time.....
i will try to get rid of this bad habit soon k...plz give me some time....haiz....

New friends found

Don't worry, my friends...ya, i felt quite lonely when I 1st arrived here ..but now I start to enjoy myself...everything goes well except for my busy college life-test n quizz every week n the stupid speaking session every friday- last week the topic was beauty pageant n this week is euthanasia-i will always be the clown in the class during this session...haiz....what to do....i get nervous easily..>< ok....stop complaining...
now i want to introduce my new friends to u all...... =)

We were having high tea in Sushi Zanmai ><

my classmates(all future architects) from left to right:

Winjing the beauty(Chinese & Filipino mix)-from pinang

Meng Min the naughtiest-from kajang
Sook Yan the coolest-from Ipoh

Mei Lian the most hardworking-from kuantan

Xin Jing the emotional one-from kuala terangganu

n finally!! ~~li chi the playful one-from malacca ^^

Margaret the cutest (future accountant-chinese & kadazan mix)-from sabah

she was one of my group member during indoor race

jia min from sg.petani, kedah-my roommate

She is the one who always support n comfort me here.

Love u, jia min^^

My new room ^^

JPA is quite kind to us afterall. The student house I am currently living now worths almost a million according to market price. It's a 2 1/2-storey terrace house in an exclusive residential area. I went to the playground nearby last friday. u know what? The children there all english-spoken, most were accompanied by their maids who were english-spoken too and each with a handphone. Ya...maid with handphone...omg...
Here are some photo of my new room.... i know it's a bit messy...u know lah....student's room is like that....><

My side

My opposite side

Balcony

Loneliness

Why am I always the loneranger? I hate being left out, truly... i hate it... staying in my own room for whole day long really makes me feel bad. Am I not sociable enough? I dont think so...
However, i should be grateful to have a bunch of old friends who is always concerned about me. They will either sms or call me whenever they think of me. I am really touched by some of them sometimes. They are truly sweet and pleasant. Some offered to help me when I told them the difficulties i faced here. Though it's quite impossible for them to keep their words, i really fell warm deep inside my heart. Yesterday, Kwan Song made an effort to call 5 of us and then together we chatted through phone. It's a bit too noisy for 6 to talk together but I really felt great. THANKs, my friends... I am lucky to have all of you in my life. =)

Back to Malacca again!

My constant blunders made me the laughing-stock of my class throughout the week.

During my first malaysian study lesson on monday, our humorous lecturer, Mr L, asked us to introduce ourselves by passing on the microphone. There were 100 over students in the lecture theatre, so everyone was waiting for his/her turn nervously as Mr L would ask us questions like the name of menteri besar of your state, the name of Sultan or even ur political view. It was my turn after Mei Lian's. "My name is Wan Mei Lian. You can call me Mei Lian. I come from Kuantan." When the microphone reached my hand and before i managed to speak up, Mr L looked at me and said,"Alien?" all of a sudden. The whole class burst into laughter. It's so weird n May i know what was happening? *sigh*

Tuesday- The first economics lesson of my life. Our econ lecturer is hot and sexy with her yellowish brown long hair, makeup, mini-skirt and stylish high-heel.I was amazed to find her as our leturer because she looks so young. However, when the lesson started, I was stunned. I couldn't catch up at all.*OMG*and as time passed, I started to day-dreaming and almost reached outer space.^^ Suddenly, a question brought me back to the real world. "What is the meaning of this?" argh!! lecturer was looking at me.total blur...what can i do? I didnt even dare to look into her eyes at that moment.so embarassing... Anyway, this incident had taught me a lesson: never day-dreaming in the class. ><

Finally Friday, there was a speaking practice during english lesson. As usual, I was very nervous. I was the last few one to be called. During the interview practice, my voice was so solf and others could hardly hear me. I kept playing with my fingers while answering those questions. Last question "What is it about your hobbies that you enjoy particularly?"asked lecturer. I answered,"......reduce my pressure...pressure...pressure."
Then my lecturer smiled "I know u are very stressful now so I shall release you from pressure. U can go back to ur seat now." OMG....I was blushing. My class let out a loud guffaw. hahahaha...

My 1st Chemistry lesson- Ms Francis Jaclyn looked so fierce, talking without a single smile. "Here is a test with me. Do it now and pass up to me before the class dismiss." I was totally blank when i saw the test paper. I had forgotten everything. felt so panic and so helpless...Time went on and on, others started getting more papers for their answers while i had just used half of my paper writing rubbish. I was trying very hard to choke down my tear. "Why on earth there is such a stupid ppl like me? I shouldn't accept this scholarship offer. A better candidate deserves it. This offer will be a wastage for a moron like me." At that moment, I really hoped that i could dissapear from the earth forever...

New Life In KBU

Miss malacca so much!!! miss mum and dad...miss mummy's delicious cooking...miss old friends...miss my pc...miss my sweet warm bed..><..although i have left malacca for only 10 days, it seems to be damn long already..haiz... Sorry kwan song for not being able to celebrate birthday with you. I am here to beg for your forgiveness^^Anyway, HAPPY BIRTHDAY TO YOU... A brand new life in KBU is not bad after all...housemates are friendly, especially Jia Min. By chance, we have the same surname and are both teow chew! haha... Her characteristics are almost the same as huay ling last time...always optimistic, outgoing, straight-forward, helpful and always laugh... like her very much...However, I think i have a boring college life. Lessons are quite dull. I often feel sleepy in the class. But then I'm afraid of English lesson as usual. Hopefully, my life will be more interesting in time to come and eventually i can adapt well in this new environment. God bless me...